Distorted Harmony

So, a brief respite between rugby matches, and I was pondering a couple of matters, although there’s no direct thread to me that binds them, other than observations from blogs that continue to highlig_ Eva:What s the chances with my hcg rising so slowly my baby has any chance?(23 August 2016) Eva:But I went to see my [...]
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Melva:
Will my online boyfriend still like me in real life?
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
I really don't want him to be disappointed because i am honestly just so ugly and fat.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
So when we meet is he going to think of me like they do?
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
And online it's not like I edit my pictures or on skype its not like i ever look any different.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
In real life when people take pictures of me or when I look in the mirror my mood is always ruined because I just look so horrible and overweight and I feel like I dont like the way he thinks of me.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
But in real life, guys don't pay me much attention and its not like attention is something i'm seeking but even before i started dating him, guys just never seemed to find me attractive in real life i guess.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
Online with my twitter and snapchat friends a surprisingly large number of them find me attractive which I absolutely don't understand since I am just so unattractive.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
We've video chatted, snapchatted, sent him pictures of me and all, usually without makeup and he says i'm beautiful without it and he's seen my body and says its really nice.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
I am always constantly worried that when we do meet that he wont like me.
(29 August 2016)

Melva:
Because of such busy schedules we haven't ever been able to meet but are planning to this year.
(29 August 2016)