Seeking a starter relationship

I’m a 31 year old guy who has suffered from social anxiety for as long as I can remember. This kept me from dating in high school and college, and now that I feel like I’m ready for a relationship I feel like I’m way behind other people my age. I’m hoping to find a [...]
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Lavonne:
Our conversations flow even though she is never the one to actually initiate a convo. she's the kind of girl that works a lot and stays home likes to go on walks and talk.
(29 December 2016)

Lavonne:
I showed her that I like her got her gifts, flowers etc.
(29 December 2016)

Lavonne:
We talk a lot over snap and text.
(29 December 2016)

Lavonne:
So I like a girl and yes she is pretty difficult.
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
Socially Awkward?
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
I think there are so many things holding me back and idk how to work on them.
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
I think this sometimes holds me back into becoming very outgoing.
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
I can easily have a conversation with someone who is older or younger than me but when it comes to someone my own age i just become dry.
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
Another place where my anxiety stems from is just people my own age.
(29 December 2016)

Bethel:
I long for a girl who I feel totally comfortable with and who loves me for who I am.
(29 December 2016)